Looking Through Stained Covered Glasses Within My Life…

What Did I You See When There Was Mud In My Eyes?

Imagine every day wearing glasses covered with pain stains all over your life?

That was my life every day looking at the world not knowing what to do and nowhere to run!

I was looking for answers that I didn’t know, and had “NO” clue where to find the question for my life’s Problems!

I am still looking for all the answers today in my life!!

As I look back at my life, I wish there was someone who really understood my problems that were creating my pains going on in my life at that time when I needed it the most!

My parents didn’t know how to make it all better, I didn’t know so how would they really help me if they were in pain themselves!

I thought my parents didn’t care about my true feeling within my heart!

This was so confusing to my little heart that was grasping upon the slim hope of true happiness in my life as a child!

Now I am in my 40’s and I am still searching for true happiness within my life!

Happiness is starting to come to my life today with every step I take towards understanding who I am!!!

How do you detect the signs that you are a toxic husband…

The 7 Signs That You Are A Toxic Person!


  1. You are always worried about what people think of you!
  2. You are always right no matter what people tell you!
  3. You get angry when someone tells you the truth about yourself!
  4. When you think you are better than your friends or family around you!
  5. When you hurt the people closest to you in your life!
  6. When you need to justify your actions that you didn’t do anything wrong!
  7. You are lying to yourself about who you really are!

These are just a few that come to mind that I have been dealing with in my life for so many years that has created my toxic life within my thoughts!


I was hiding from the truth for many years with the feeling that my life would never get better before I past on!

That is so far from the truth now!


How did I find “My Truth Within Myself”!



This was just the begining of the process!!

There was so much more to come in my life!!




How Did I Make My Wife Sick To Her…

The Moment That I “ABUSED” My Family!!



My life was filled with monents of abuse because, I wanted more attention from there love towards me!!

Why was this my life? 


The past was taking over my future!!


What was my deep thought towards my life?

I just wanted to be loved!!


We all want to be loved “NO MATTER WHAT”!!


What is real love within ourselves?


Looking into the mirror upon our true self and saying “I LOVE YOU”


Merry Christmas To All And A Good Night!!